[nONIE]

Yes, Yes, Yes, Sam,

This is such a strange feeling being home, like TV was just a blur of a memory. I cant really say Im unhappy being home but Im trying very hard not to be happy here. A friend told me to put a beautiful picture of TV up on the refrigerator and look at it often to remind myself of that beautiful wonderful place that I want to get back to. Im throwing out and cleaning out like crazy and at times I have to ask myself, What am I doing.???

I have to think hard about all the great people and fun activities that I have left behind to keep myself going but sometimes its hard because there are also very close bonds here at home and the fact that we have spent most of our lives in this location.

Yes, it is difficult but I keep thinkking about that plaque that I found in a dresser drawer,
"Grab life by the throttle and never look back". Sometimes I know that is a little hard to do but Im going to give it my all!!!