[renielarson]

I feel as if TV is pulling on one arm and home is pulling on the other. It's a tug of war. This has been home for 35 years. I think of leaving this behind and basically starting over and that's not easy to do for someone like me who is a "nester."

Yet, when in TV, I don't want to leave. I'm so happy there. I wonder if it's the newness of it and would I continue to be that happy if I made it my new home? What if we sell everything here, make the move, then find out that it's not what I had expected after settling down. I know people have packed up and moved back home but I don't want to do that. If, and when we decide to move to Florida, I want it to be a decision I know I'll be able to live with.

All I know right now is that I live for my trips to TV...count the months and days. When time to return home, I become very sad and am miserable for a while. Then routine sets in, I get busy with work, family, friends and am not so unhappy...even though I still have a pretty good idea of how many months and days it is until my next return.

As of right now...I'll be arriving in TV in 33 days!