I am not blaming you. I just don't understand why you keep putting yourself in situations where you are only harming yourself. It's obvious the more you post about harassment, the more upset you become. This is not healthy behavior. There is one poster on this forum that used to upset me every time I would read his posts because he is always on the attack and has little more to say than to call others names and belittle them. Therefore, I put him on ignore because it was a waste of my time to read his posts and they would just upset me even when not directed at me. I rarely notice when he posts now because the way the ignore feature is set up you really have to scan carefully to see their name appear. I know my time on this forum has been much less stressful since I did that - and I don't peek! Just a thought.