O Tal Me Boy! You have to diversify. I am not all that attentive to details on some things but I have captured your ongoing repetitiveness with Blonds. I think it might be time to branch out to other women.
11 All in the Family S4E11, Black is the Color of My True Love's Wig - YouTube Check out around the 8-minute mark. I don't think I've seen one Natural Blonde since we moved to these here parts. You're a great guy for the things you do for your family. Good things will come your way when you don't try and make it happen.
Many people have Breakdowns of sorts, some while they are posting. I don't think anyone does or should hold that time against you. They have no right to do so. The main thing is you have to not hold the past against yourself, it just keeps you NOTHING but trapped. Take a look at the past in the rearview mirror for a second then look forward. Living in the rearview mirror is not good for anyone. Hope things work out for you Tal!