[ssmith]

...I feel that what I am hearing is that you are not ready to be at this point in your journey, that you want things to be as they were (ie giving up on your dreams). I don't know if this is right or not....it may be that you are having to say goodbye to what your life was and that you will have to face the reality of where your lives are...and by doing that you feel that you are giving in. If that is true, then it sounds as if you are working through the reality of where life has you. You will know will know what to do.

Sorry for your husbands health issues. It does sound very serious. I agree that being a primary care-giver takes a toll! Praying you find the right answer for you!