[graciegirl]

I am trying to understand this.

It is wrong to be so polite in this world and so "correct" that we can't talk about real things that are happening.

I am shocked to find that I must be a racist. I certainly didn't want to be.

I generally meet each new person in my life and just see that person, not their skin tone on their faith. But I can see that I have changed into something that I have never admired. I still do that, but the world is changing and hatred is stewing.

I keep trying to find some clue as to how to do what is the right thing, without ignoring what is changing.

I feel a cold creeping fear that I have never encountered in my life.

I am trying to understand and find out just what I think.

I am trying to keep an open mind and find some tools in dealing with a completely new situation....in my heart.

I hope that the world situation does not enter our back yard.

That is so selfish.

What CAN be done to make this better.

I don't want to be a bigot or a racist. I want to be a person who finds good.

But I don't want to be unaware of things that are changing. And danger among us.