[graciegirl]

What I typed above was in frustration and anger. I think I understand addiction pretty well. But I grow tired of folks labeling some things when I know darn well that folks don't have to end up like this.


I hate, hate, hate what has happened to this country and the world because of drugs. I wish we could send all of our worlds combined military strength into the source of all this and eradicate it. That of course would put innocent people out of work who tend the poppies. People who have babies and homes.


I wish that they would make laws to stop drugs. But they have laws and drugs are illegal. I remember when no one I knew or anyone they knew ever heard of drugs. We just had drunks. The doctor came to the house and gave you little envelopes with pills when you were sick. Good kind saving drugs, antibiotics were just beginning. People didn't have enough of anything to overcome the pain when they were dying of cancer.


I don't like to turn on the television every night and see the people who have been killed probably because of their drug debts. I don't like to see the people who grow up in areas where big success is being a drug dealer.


I want to yell at someone to fix all of this, but as I grow older I have far fewer answers and far more questions.


I guess that I am just lucky it didn't happen to me or mine because addiction is genetic and it sure runs in my family. People with addictive personalities almost always are sensitive and fragile. And I just remembered someone that I do know that grew up in a strict family that died as a result of addiction.


I am sorry I said what I said. I wish I could fix this horrible thing called drugs. I do need to remember to not be so damn stubborn and judgmental. But I am sure I will do it again. We sometimes can't help being who we are. And we can't change it drastically. We are stuck being us.