Again thank yyou for your input and concern, Gracie I collected your hug from another friend, it felt great! I would not describe myself as unhappy though I clearly am. I would just say that things are not as expected
I'm a firm believer that we are on this earth to help others and for now I can't see myself doing that although of course we never know how we affect those around us. Please don't worry about me I have too many blessings to count and nothing to complain about.